NABC Chapter 134 Withering and Blooming 0 (1979)
Chapter 134 Withering and Blooming 0 (1979)
The rooster crowed twice and the sky became clear. Xiuxiu almost cried dryly as she listened to Qinghua's story about the past.
"I'm sorry, Sister Qinghua! I'm late! I'm too late!" Xiuxiu hugged Qinghua. She had grown up in the countryside since she was a child. She had heard a lot of local customs and old news, but she had never been exposed to it. She was familiar with Zhang Qinghua's She couldn't accept the encounter!
"Xiuxiu! Sister's affairs have nothing to do with you!" Qinghua patted the back of Xiuxiu's hand and said, "Sister has been half-buried for a long time. Living is just like dead. She has been numb for so many years! Don't cry!"
"Don't think like that! You can't think like that! You have to live well!" Xiuxiu felt scared after hearing what she said. She brought this sister out because she wanted to find a way to help her quickly. She was afraid that Sister Qinghua wouldn't give it to her. Leave time!
Zhang Qinghua's tone was very calm: "Sister, this is how it is all my life. There is nothing to live for. I live to give Jiancheng something to think about and don't want Jiancheng to get into trouble. As long as I am in the Wang family for a day, Wang Shuan will not look for me." Built trouble!"
Xiuxiu wiped her tears and asked, "When did Zhang Jiancheng know that you were married?" She now understood the whole story and understood Zhang Qinghua's concerns, but she didn't understand Zhang Jiancheng's indifference to his sister.
"More than a year later, I sent him a telegram and told him about my marriage. In 76, he came back to visit relatives and found out from the villagers that I got married the second month after my father died. After he found out, Just so disappointed in me!”
Qinghua said: "From the moment he stepped into the Wang family's door, I could see his disappointed eyes! The family was poor and dilapidated, and there was a paralyzed father-in-law lying in the side room. He couldn't accept it and put him in the house.
No one can accept it! "
"I can also see that he is very cold to me and has a strong opinion of me because I married myself off without permission before my father's body was even cold. I am a weak, useless woman who can only be parasitic on men. He can't forgive me!"
When Zhang Qinghua said this, she covered her face.
She has not told anyone about her past. Houpo Village has backward folk customs, and Qinghua disdains the company of those shrewd village women. She has no friends and is depressed, relying on her backbone to support herself.
Xiuxiu gently pulled her hand away, looked into Qinghua's eyes, and asked solemnly:
"That's why you said that if Zhang Jiancheng wanted to know, there would always be a way to find out. Do you think it was because he couldn't forgive you for marrying during your father's death, so even though he saw you living a hard life, he deliberately didn't investigate the reason?"
Xiuxiu was blaming Zhang Jiancheng, but Qinghua didn't blame him and explained:
"Jian Jiancheng has been a soldier outside for many years, so naturally he doesn't understand things in the village. It's not that he can't forgive me. He just doesn't have time. He only has a few days of family leave. He left me money when he left. He still has me in his heart. My sister’s!”
"Actually, I acted like I was doing well at the time. I cleaned myself up and entertained him well for two days. Wang Shuan didn't dare to say anything. He was afraid of people in military uniforms. Jiancheng was wearing military uniforms and went into the house. It’s scary to stand!”
When Zhang Qinghua said this, a little light flashed in his ashen eyes: "I was very proud at that time! My brother has grown into a man, upright and mighty, he has military achievements, and his future is not delayed because of me. , I am actually satisfied!
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"I thought at that time, if I stick with it for two more years, I will retire after two more years. When he comes back, I can leave without worries!"
When Xiuxiu heard this, she was so uncomfortable that she couldn't speak. She threw herself on Qinghua again and hugged her tightly.
Qinghua shed tears sadly. She sighed and said, "I really want to disappear from this world. If I could do it all over again, I would never live like this. I would never be afraid of men anymore. I would never be scared because of threats from men." Dare to resist!"
"But more often, I want a better afterlife. Wang Shuan wanted to lock the door of the side house for a few days many times, but I didn't agree. I had served that old man for so many years, just because I didn't want to plant any seeds. The root of sin, I still want a better afterlife!"
Xiuxiu couldn't listen anymore and stopped her: "Don't talk about the next life, Sister Qinghua, we can create a beautiful second half of life!"
Qinghua sighed and shook his head: "Xiuxiu! Sister has lived too dirty and tired in this life. She doesn't want anything for the rest of her life! As soon as Jiancheng came back from the army, it was time for me to leave, but I never expected... Unexpectedly...he actually brought back a child!"
At the mention of balls, Xiuxiu straightened up and looked at her with wide eyes!
Qinghua said: "I originally thought that he would have a hard time with the child, and I couldn't worry about it. Fortunately, you are here!"
"Last year, when you were seriously ill, he seemed to be going crazy. He originally had a strong opinion of me and was unwilling to associate with the Wang family, but he still sent someone to pick me up from the Wang family to help take care of the child!"
"My younger brother has been stubborn since he was a child. He is very firm towards people and things. Once he is determined, he will be firm. He loves you more than he loves himself.
He has more lives, everyone can see that! "
When Qinghua said this, she took Xiuxiu's hand: "I looked at Dandan and you, and I really couldn't let go. I originally hoped that you and Jiancheng would get married well. I know that he is right and wrong." You can't, I know my brother best..."
"Sister Qinghua!" Xiuxiu completely understood Zhang Qinghua's thoughts. It turned out that she had always wanted to arrange a good life for Zhang Jiancheng! Xiuxiu said firmly:
"I don't want to get married! The reason why I broke off the engagement is because I don't want to get married in my whole life! Do you want me to marry Zhang Jiancheng, serve him and his children all my life, and be tired forever around the kitchen and pots? I don't want to live that kind of life!"
Qinghua frowned and explained quietly: "Xiuxiu! My brother Jiancheng is a good man. I promise you that he will never let you suffer. You will not suffer in the Zhang family!"
Xiu Xiu held Qing Hua's hand: "He is so kind, why doesn't he still care about your sister's marriage and life? You are the real member of the Zhang family, but you have suffered for so many years, so he can't do the same. Do not you know?"
"Xiu Xiu!" Zhang Qinghua didn't know what to say.
Xiuxiu said: "You can't hide it from him anymore, Sister Qinghua, you can't live like that anymore!"
"Don't! Xiuxiu!" Qinghua begged urgently: "Because I married far away and was poor, no one in Xiaoxi Village knows about my affairs. You must not tell Jiancheng. I don't want him to know! I don't want to let him know." Anyone know!"
Xiuxiu's eyes turned red with anxiety: "Do you want to sacrifice yourself to death?"
"This is not self-sacrifice, it's because I can't handle things well on my own and my character is too weak to resist.
If you don't know people well and are confused, you will ruin your life. By the time you want to look back, it will be too late! This is all my own fault! "
The sadness on Qinghua's face made Xiuxiu's heart break. She begged sadly: "I live a dirty and sinful life. I don't want anyone to know! Xiuxiu! I beg you..."